Still struggling..

Well I haven't posted in a couple weeks. I gained a 1/2 a pound after the Belgian waffle incident. And then this past Friday another 1/2 a pound. And this time I had no idea why. I know thats not a huge amount, but when you are trying so hard to get the scale going DOWN and 2 weeks in a row it goes UP.. it is just damned frustrating. It shouldn't be this hard. My eating was so much better this week, yet still I had a gain. Grrr. I still love my lapband, I'm still thankful it keeps me from doing more damage to myself. But I have to admit I wish it was easier. I've done my 30 day shred a couple times this week. I need to do some form of exercise EVERY day. I don't know why I struggle so hard with this. On youtube there is a pyschiatrist that helps bariatric patients prepare for surgery and counsels them afterwards. She's posted on there and I found it very interesting, her name is Connie Stapleton. She talked about exercise, that you need to just get your mind set to make it something you simply have to do. Like putting gas in your car, like getting up early for work when you'd rather sleep. It's just something you do, because you have to. So I'm really trying to incorporate that into my life. Kinda like the Nike logo.. JUST DO IT.
I saw my lapband surgeon on Friday. We discussed putting a little more fill in my band. I am sure I need it. But I was heading up to the lake that afternoon and so we decided to wait. Should there be a problem I really don't want to be 4 hours away and in agony. So when I go home I will go get a fill. And hopefully that will get me back on track. I do have to keep reminding myself that while I am loose and able to eat things I can't normally.. that just because I CAN, does not mean I should. So far so good, being on vacation up at the lake it is always harder to stay focused on eating healthy. But I'm just going to do my best. It's all I can do. It's upper 30's today (heatwave) so I am going to go for a walk and get this body moving. Take care..