I just got back from Michigan, for the second time this month. The first time I drove out with my daughter to see my Grandmother, as she had just been diagnosed with small-cell lung Cancer. I knew it would be the last time I'd see her, and I'm so glad now that I made the trip, and that I took my daughter. At first, I was going to go alone, thinking it was not a trip for children. But she pleaded to come along, sure that she was mature enough to handle the very adult task of saying goodbye to a loved one, knowing you'd never see them again. She handled it all very well. We had a nice time together with family. The second time I flew out alone, for the funeral. It was a beautiful ceremony. It was nice to see relatives, although a sad occasion. Many had not seen me since I'd lost weight. It was nice to get alot of compliments, though some were a bit odd. My well-meaning Uncle commented that now my sister and I look "like sisters again" . Ummm.. when I was 50lbs heavier I didn't look related?? Well alrighty then. Thanks?
I had an NSV while I was there. I had forgotten to get my dress slacks pressed when I got there, so I ran out to dressbarn the morning of the visitation to buy new ones. I ran around the store finding a few outfits and headed into the dressing room. 3 out of the 4 outfits fit. How cool is that? It used to be such a challenge finding clothes to cover my big butt.. or my hips.. or my boobs. Now.. I know my size.. grab the clothes.. and they fit. And there are so many more choices when you are on the regular size side of the store vs. the plus size side. clothes have more shape, and accent your good parts rather than just cover up fat. I was back home within an hour with new size 12 pants, and a beautiful black/white jacket tailored jacket in tow.
I'm not gaining weight.. but not losing either. I'd like to lose 20 more lbs... but I know its going to require me moving my body more. Next week is my 5k.. and I'm going to do it , but it is not likely I will run it. With the trips to MI and all the stress of losing my grandmother, I've just not been exercising like I should. I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I'm so pleased with the progress I've made, and that my band keeps me from doing too much damage even in times of stress. I've been reading alot more blogs and inspired by how dedicated so many are to working their bands. I want to be one of them. I'm going to try to blog more. um. er. I will blog more. there is no try, only do or not do. I'll try to add a picture of the jacket if I can remember how to add photos to a blog post.
